Math rant

Math just makes me feel dumb, you know? I'm in honors
Geometry. That may sound good but it's not. Im just good enough to be in that class but I always feel like I'm a step behind. Kind of like just being fast enough to be on the track team but slower than everyone else. Or like your going up a flight of steps that your legs are just able to get up, and when you finally begin to understand, the steps reach plateau. Then the teacher throws a curveball and a step cracks under your feet, but you keep climbing because the deadline to switch into an easier class was yesterday, and that feels like water is flooding the staircase and you have to keep climbing to keep your head over. Then the end of the year exam results come back, and congratulations! You qualify to go into the NEXT honors class!
During the year everyone is always sharing their test scores and crying when they get 90s and telling their friends "You got a 92? That's so bad." Meanwhile I'm trying to hide my 86 and check what I got wrong this time.
I'm a straight A honors student in everything but math, and that 1 class can make you feel like your failing every class and life in general.